Appointments like whoa

Last night was ridiculous. After I picked Em up from daycare, we went home. I put dinner in the oven, then we played for a while. Em wasn’t interested in playing in the yard at all. I keep telling him he’s going to regret passing up yard play when it’s too cold to go outside, but he’d rather play in the living room with his toys. Anyway, he played forever. He was so engrossed in his toys that I took it upon myself to do the dishes to get ahead of my chores before he went to bed instead of after. Anyway, I was minding my business and washing a glass, when the damn thing busted and cut my hand. Ouch! I didn’t panic though. I grabbed the nearest thing to me, which was one of Emerson’s old t-shirts that was in the laundry basket. Yep, shirt ruined. I applied as much pressure as I could to try to stop the bleeding, then called my  mom. I wasn’t entirely sure if I needed stitches. The cut is in such an awkward spot on my hand. They’d probably just glue it shut. My dad ended up coming over with some first aid stuff, then patching me up. It’s sore as hell, but I’m okay. At that point, I was just done with the day. I fed Em dinner, gave him a bath, then put him to bed. I did a quick workout, cleaned, packed lunch, then laid on the couch until almost 11pm.

This morning, I was running so late. I slept in until 5:27am. Ugh. Luckily, I had packed lunch the night before, and got the diaper bag ready. I’ve been showering at night, then blow drying my hair, but I didn’t do it the night before, so I knew we were going to be even later. By the time we left the house, it was nearly 615am. 17 minutes late, which meant I missed TWO buses. I decided to just drive in today. If I didn’t, I would have been about 35-40 minutes late to work because I would have had to wait on a later bus. I ended up getting here on time, but that means I have to pay to park, which sucks. Anyway, I am trying so hard to not let it dictate my day. It’s my own fault we were so late this morning. I’ve been running behind all week. I know it’s because I’ve been staying up later too. I just need to take my butt to bed earlier. I haven’t been able to work out at lunch for the last couple of days, so that’s throwing me off too. I’m now using some of my evenings to work out at home, which sucks. I like getting it done and over with, so I can do other things at night. I’m hoping I can work out during the day today, so I can have my evenings back!

Today is the best my mouth has felt since I had my root canal last Tuesday. It’s crazy how long it took to feel better. A week! It sucks because I have to go back on the 16th to have the permanent crown put on AND some fillings. I know that I’ll probably be all messed up again after that. I’m dreading it. I really, really am. I’m still not eating on that side, but it doesn’t really bother me as much now. I haven’t taken any Motrin for a couple of days either. I know he wants to do some other things to me after my next appointment. He said we’d start on the other side of my mouth. Ugh. I know I need some fillings on that side, and he mentioned wanting to put a crown on a tooth that the filling broke in. After that, I think I’ll be good to go. I just don’t look forward to being all banged up afterwards. He definitely wants me to get my wisdom teeth taken out, but I’m putting that one on the back burner for now! He can do the fillings, and then we’ll go from there. I need a break though. I’ve been to the dentist 3 times in the last three weeks. I know it’s necessary though. Once I am all caught up, I should be good to go. Em is getting his teeth cleaned and a fluoride treatment today at daycare. The health department makes periodic visits. I had to give consent, but it’s nice that they offer that free service to the kids. I didn’t put Em on my dental insurance for 2015. I didn’t think I would need to take him before 2. I’m mad at myself now. I wish I had because I would have taken him already to get his teeth cleaned, and to just expose him to the dentist. Open enrollment is this month, so I’ll be adding him for 2016, then making an appointment for the beginning of the year. In the meantime, I fight with him twice a day to brush his teeth. It’s REALLY annoying. I’m appreciative that the dentist will see him today though. Hopefully he doesn’t freak out, and I also hope they don’t have anything bad to report. I stay on his teeth! Okay, enough teeth talk. Sorry, this has just been the center of my life for the past couple of weeks. Next up, an eye appointment on the 15th. I don’t think they’ll screw me up too badly, or that’ll be a double whammy. Eye appointment, then a dentist appointment the next day.  After that, I need to find a NEW gyno to have a yearly done because with the whole healthcare feud going on here, I can no longer go to my obgyn. At least I don’t think I can. I’ll have to check. If I can still go there, that would be amazing. I haven’t had a yearly appointment yet, so I need to scratch that off of the list too. Next year, I’ll schedule all of this stuff spaced apart, so I don’t feel like I’m constantly going to appointments! I also need a regular physical too, but I did have a health screening back in June. That came out fine, so I think I’m okay on that front.

Being healthy isn’t just about eating well and exercising. It’s about the upkeep, which means having regular check-ups for EVERYTHING. This is something that I’ve fallen behind on, but now that I have Emerson, perspective has really come into play. As much as I need to keep him healthy, I need to worry about myself too. That’s one thing  didn’t see growing up. My parents never kept regular maintenance of themselves. My dad actually does now. He has regular doctor visits, but my mom doesn’t do anything unless she has a problem. Preventative care, people! Does it suck, yes, but in the long run it could make such a big difference. For years, I’ve paid for amazing insurance, but never used it. Why? I have no reason outside of sheer laziness. I have amazing healthcare coverage, so why the hell am I not using it for preventative services? I am now though, which is why I’m making all of these appointments to get myself back to a clean bill of health.

Alright, guys. I am going to wrap this up. I hope you all have a healthy day!

I hate being poor

The next ten days are going to be extremely hard for me. I cannot spend ANY money outside of putting gas in the car, groceries, diapers, wipes, and loading my bus card up.  I’m sure you’re wondering why. Well, $300 for a crown is not cheap. I paid $150 when I went to my appointment last Friday, but I need to pay the remaining $150 when I go back on the 16th. It SUCKS. I’m trying my hardest to not dwell about it because it is something that I truly did need fixed, but man.  My pockets are suffering badly. On top of that, I got slapped with a $110 water bill that I wasn’t expecting. I am basically $410 in the hole and trying to dig my way out. Luckily, all of the other bills are paid, so we are okay in that aspect. I just need to really crack down and get back into my cheaper way of living. Becoming a Beachbody coach has been great and all, but a few people returned their Shakeology, which put me in the negative, so any commission I was getting went towards that. I haven’t been pushing very hard with that business either, so I’m not really generating any income from it. I just don’t have the time to dedicate to it without bogging myself down. I really enjoy working out and coaching the folks that are using the programs, but I don’t have time to send messages every day to invite people to use the products. On top of that, posting constantly to attract interest was exhausting. It’s been really nice to take a step back from that part of the business, but losing out on the income has been EXTREMELY DIFFICULT. For the last three months, I was becoming overly comfortable with that income. We weren’t doing anything lavish, but I was buying more and better quality groceries. That’s the part I’m going to miss the most. I refuse to go back to eating Ramen every day though. Even if it means I’m eating plain brown rice for lunch, I don’t care.

I do see a couple of tough months ahead financially for us. Christmas is looming too. I cut the lists down to barely nothing to help  out, so we should be okay there. Emerson won’t really know the difference anyway, plus my parents will spoil him regardless. It does make me nervous to be strapped this badly, but I am on the right road to hopefully correcting it. It saddens and sickens me that $400 sends me into a tizzy. It should make, or break me, but it really did! The last thing I want is to be overly stressed about money. It has been so nice to not worry as much as I typically do. The next ten days are going to be such a challenge, but I know if I can make it through without spending a dime, then I can make it through the next few months.

Luckily, there are so many free Fall and Halloween events going on this month that Emerson and I can still enjoy the festivities without spending money. I already bought his Halloween costume too, so we’re all set there. I think we’ll have plenty to distract ourselves over hopping in the car going to dinner, or random trips to Walmart. We need to get back to the basics with crafting at home, going on walks, the park, and having free play dates. I hate that money controls everything.

I sent Emerson’s dad an email last week. I basically asked if he’d be willing to help with daycare costs, or any costs for that matter. I write an almost $800 check every month. It would be amazing if he’d actually pitch in to help me. I understand that he doesn’t want Emerson, but he still helped create him. He is still financially responsible for him. I don’t understand why people don’t want to do things in an amicable way. He never responded, which doesn’t surprise me.  Anyway, I am not going to dwell on about that. It is what it is. I put it out there, which I’m sure he just LOVED reading that I was asking him for help. It isn’t help. It’s your responsibility to your child. I have never asked him for anything, or pursued anything either. I am a really good mom. I handle my shit by myself, which I have no problem with, but I can’t get a second job because I can’t afford more daycare. I can’t make money appear out of thin air either. Some things I just can’t do. Okay, enough about that.

Alright, guys. I am going to wrap this up now. I hope you all have a fabulous Tuesday! Thanks for always sticking with me!

Our weekend

This weekend was awesome. On Friday, I went grocery shopping after work, zoomed to daycare to pick Em up, then headed back home. We had pizza for dinner. It was delicious! My mouth was still pretty sore, but I was actually able to eat dinner with Em. I didn’t do anything after he went to bed. I was pretty exhausted from being in pain all day. I just laid on the couch with Kodie and watched HGTV.

On Saturday, I woke up at 6am. I knew Em would probably sleep until at least 7. I wanted to shower and get ready for the day, then clean up the house. We needed to pick my sister up at 9am, so she could watch Em before my dentist appointment. Anyway, Em slept in until 830! I was shocked. I got him up, packed an on-the-go breakfast, then headed out to get my sister. My tooth actually felt 100 times better, so I canceled my appointment. I was afraid the dentist would tinker around and make it start hurting again. After I picked up Britt, we went up to Burlington to grab something for Em to wear to the wedding that we were attending that afternoon. Then, we headed back home to eat lunch. While Em took a nap, Britt and I did our hair and make-up, then got dressed. It worked out perfectly. Em woke up around 2pm, so we got him dressed and ready. The wedding started at 3 and it was surprisingly on –time. The ceremony was nice. My cousin looked very, very happy. Em and I had to retreat into the nursey because he was not sitting still. The good thing is the nursery had a huge glass windowed that looked out to the chapel, so I was able to watch the entire wedding. The room was mainly soundproof too, so no one could hear Em when he was being loud. It worked out perfectly. Afterwards, we stopped past my parent’s house because we had an hour to kill between the ceremony and reception. The reception started at 5. Em was the only kid there. He had a great time though. I chased him around pretty much the entire time we were there. 5pm-9pm. My feet were so sore by the time we left, but I had a great time. When we got home, he went right to sleep. The poor guy was so tuckered out.

On Sunday, we went to my parent’s house to celebrate their 30th wedding anniversary. They went away to a cabin all weekend, so we hadn’t really spoken to them. We got a cake and some cards too. It was nice. Afterwards, Em and I went home to play in the yard for a bit. I put a chicken and potato casserole in the crock pot, so dinner was done too. We ate around 6. I let Em stay up a little later. He took a 2.5 hour nap, so he wasn’t really ready at his usual time. When he did go to bed, I worked out, then watched my shows. Nothing major.

Here we are. Monday.  I hope this week doesn’t suck. It’s already showing some signs though. I hope you all have a great week though!

I'm so behind

The last week has been so crazy. I know I haven’t written at all, but bear with me guys. Last Friday, I went to the dentist for a cleaning and check-up. The X-ray showed that I had a pretty bad cavity and needed a root canal. I was freaking out. I scheduled a follow-up appointment to have the procedure done the following Tuesday (this week). I had no pain, or anything. The tooth wasn’t even bothering me, but I wanted to get it done immediately before I did start to have tooth pain. Anyway, I went in on Tuesday. The procedure was long. I sat in the dentist’s chair for a grueling 2.5 hours. My appointment started around 9am. I left there around 11:30am. Some of that time was dedicated to new x-rays when we were done and being fitted for a temporary crown. After I left the dentist, I was VERY numb, so obviously I had no pain at all. When I got home, I took a couple motrin to curb any pain that might appear after the novacaine wore off. I felt okay. I was a bit sore, but that’s normal. The tooth itself wasn’t sore, but the area around it was. My jaw was also sore from holding my mouth open for hours. The pain was completely manageable. Wednesday, I woke up and had pain. My jaw was still hurting, and the tissue in my mouth was sore, especially under my tongue. Eating was not a pleasant experience at all, but I chalked it up to normalcy considering I had the procedure done 1 day prior. Yesterday was the worst. Talking, eating, and even swallowing causes pain. My jaw is still sore, but I’ve been babying it so much that I feel I’m almost doing it to myself. The tissue under my tongue and on the side of my mouth are still sore too. I had ear pain from my jaw too. I went running yesterday, which didn’t help matters either. I was running AND talking, so I just felt a lot of movement in my jaw and mouth. Last night was the worst though. This morning too. I’m calling the dentist at 9. Today is the start of my 3rd day, so I just feel like I shouldn’t be having these issues now. It should be getting better, not worse. The aching is awful though and I’ve just about had it. To go from NO pain at all to this sucks! I’m almost mad at myself for having it taken care of before it gave me a problem. I know that was the responsible thing to do, but my goodness! I am miserable! Last week, I had freaking pink eye! I feel like I cannot win at all. I go back to the dentist on the 16th for the permanent crown and a couple of fillings. After this, I’m going to be even more scared to go to the dentist! I do not want to be in pain. Fix me, and then let me just enjoy my smile for a while pain-free. Thank God the pink eye is gone though. I didn’t pass it to Emerson either, which was a miracle. I battled that all of last week. I just need a break.

I took the day off on Wednesday though. I took Em to the ped for a flu shot and another shot he needed. Afterwards, we had a playdate with a friend of mine and her son. Then, I took him for a haircut. He looks adorable! We had a nice day though.  It was nice being off. Of course, when I came back to work yesterday it was a nightmare. When I was out, one of our portals went down, so none of my work was done. I had to play super catch-up yesterday, which sucked. I was not a happy camper. I hope today is a lot better. It sucks to work through pain, but it sucks even more when you’re stressed out and working. Outside of that, we haven’t done much of anything. We have a wedding to go to tomorrow for my cousin. It starts around 2pm, so I’m thinking we’ll be back home by 7-730 at the latest. I know Em will never sit through the ceremony though.

Update: I now have a dentist appointment tomorrow at 10:45am. I’m hoping my sister will let me pick her up early, so she can watch Emerson. If not, oh boy. That’ll be a wreck. I have no idea how I’ll ever get my mouth looked at with him running around. Hopefully the staff won’t mind to watch him for a minute for the doctor to check me out. The dentist also called me in a prescription for an antibiotic just in case there is an infection. I hope there isn’t one though  and I’m okay. It almost just feels like the crown is scraping oddly. I guess I’ll find out tomorrow, but having to let the dentist tinker around again FREAKS ME OUT! I don’t want to be in any MORE pain than I’m in now. Say a prayer for me guys! It sucks to just try to take care of yourself and then have issues.

Alright,  enough complaining from me. I’m sorry to beat your ears over this, guys. It’s hard to forget about a gnawing pain though in the side of your head! I hope you all have a great weekend!