I'm in a crisis-help!

This is going to be extremely out of the ordinary for me and something I am not even comfortable to admit yet, but here I am. I think I’m ready to date again. There, I said it. I put it out in the universe. As quickly as I said it, I want to take it back because I’m absolutely petrified. It scares me so much to even expose myself to those situations again. I still have a young toddler at home, so it won’t be the easiest thing to do, but I do feel like I’m starting to get the desire back to share life with someone else. I feel selfish and greedy admitting that though. Emerson is my entire world. I’ve taken on so much with Beachbody. I utilize my time appropriately though, so that I’m not taking any from him. How could I ever fit dating in? I don’t even mean traditional dating where I’d need to get a sitter to leave my home. I mean starting out slowly, and getting to know someone first. Then, maybe hanging out at my house after Emerson is in bed to start. Potentially venturing out on a real date once every two weeks. It doesn’t seem unrealistic, but it also seems way too easy, which means it probably isn’t that realistic.

I don’t mean to be so pessimistic either. I guess I am just worried about judgements from other people too. I know my family will make comments to me like “Emerson better come first”. Those things piss me off. Obviously, he is always first. I would never put anyone, or anything above him. I just feel like if I had my sister babysit once every couple of weeks, so I could spend time with another person, my mother would frown down on it. I know I shouldn’t care what she thinks, but I just know how she is. Her and my dad left us with a babysitter every single Wednesday night, so they could go bowling. I don’t see what the difference would be if I had a sitter every couple of weeks to spend time with someone else outside of my home. I am a human being too. Yes, I am a mother first, but I also deserve to find happiness, and to potentially build a family with another person. I don’t know why I feel the need to justify this. Just because I’m a mom doesn’t mean that I have to be alone for the rest of my life.

I think the biggest thing that bothers me is even having this desire to want to date. I have suppressed those feelings for nearly two years.  It’s scary that it all of a sudden came out of nowhere. I don’t feel entirely ready for that feeling either. I don’t know if it’s because I feel better about myself and more confident, or what? I half think that’s a major contributing factor. Before I started to take care of myself through BeachBody, I was exhausted and didn’t feel really great about myself. Now, I do have a newfound confidence and a love for myself. I think I’m ready to share that with another person. I don’t think you can love anyone else until you fully love yourself. I’m at that point now, which is scary, but exciting.

I think the biggest thing I’m afraid of is having issues with someone. Not choosing wisely  and falling into old habits like I did in the past. I’ve grown so much. I wish I had the wisdom now that I lacked back then. All of those roads led to Emerson though, so I can’t really regret anything. I’m just afraid that a bad experience could rock my world. I have my sh*t together, and the last thing I want is for someone to change that. I’ve never felt more level headed either. My life and priorities are intact. You girls all know where I am coming from too. You know how one bad relationship can throw everything off course. I don’t want to end up crying and miserable every day because someone is mistreating me. Emerson plays a big factor in anyone that I decided to share my time with. He’d be affected too.

I also don’ t know where to start either. I want to be really honest with you guys. I’ve always been THAT girl, never THE girl. Someone that you want to have fun with and take home for the night. Never the girl that you want to take home to mom. It’s my own fault because I let the fun, wild side take over the sweet, caring person that was on the inside. No one took me seriously, or looked at me like they could build a future with me. I know where I’ve gone wrong and what to avoid, but I don’t know if my reputation precedes me still. Recently, a few people have still tried to stick me in that role. I’m not that girl anymore. I want a family for myself, and Emerson. To me, it isn’t fun and games anymore. I really am looking for more than that. I hope that people can truly get a sense of who I am now versus who I was back then.

Am I crazy, guys? Tell me the truth too. You all have been with me since I found myself pregnant and alone. It was so scary, but for some reason, this seems scarier!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mummy's been MIA

I haven’t written in a week! What?! Now, that’s unheard of. Sorry, guys! Em and I are doing well. This past weekend, we went shopping and swimming. We didn’t do anything too crazy. We went to dinner on Thursday, then to visit my parents afterwards. I went to a Bachelorette party this weekend. I was home by 930pm. It really wasn’t my scene and I did not have fun at all. It’s hard being amongst a group of people you don’t really know. Being honest, I thought most of the girls were bitchy. I tried making conversation, but they were not very receptive. The one even stated that she works at the same company as me. When I said that I worked there too and asked what area she was in, she blew me off. I was sitting RIGHT next to her. I asked two separate times if I needed to dress up and was told no, that I didn’t need to wear a dress. Low and behold, every single girl was dressed up in dresses. I had no idea we’d be outside in 95 degree heat either. There I was, wearing black pants. Both girls who told me that I didn’t need to dress up were literally in NICE dresses and heels. What the hell? On top of that, I’m not invited to the wedding and I was not invited to a bridal shower. I received an invitation in the mail for an after wedding party at the bride’s mom’s house. When I read the invitation, I thought the bride and groom were just doing a small ceremony with just family, then having a party. I asked my best friend about it and she told me that she was invited to the ceremony. She is much closer to the bride than I am, so it makes sense, but why invite me to your bachelorette party then? I would assume that event would strictly be for people invited to the bridal shower and wedding. I wouldn’t invite just anyone to my bachelorette party. Anyway, I’m not going to her after wedding party. I was so uncomfortable at her bachelorette party. I’m not putting myself through more of the same. I’m definitely not going to sit there amongst bitchy girls who are getting drunk either. I’m especially not wasting any babysitting services to attend that either. If it were that important that I attend, then I’d be invited to the wedding. She should share that day with the people closest to her. I know I sound bitchy now, but I’m no trying to be. It just was awkward. If I’m getting a babysitter, then it’s going to be for people I want to spend my time with and doing something that I want to do.

Outside of that, I’ve just been working and doing a lot of BeachBody business stuff. I’m still working out and eating correctly too, which I’ve grown to love. I’m consuming my Shakeology daily too. I love having energy and being able to chase Emerson around more. He is so wild, guys. He’s just into everything that he shouldn’t want to be into. I know he’s just exploring, but it can be quite overbearing at times. I’m sure it’ll settle down as we go along. I just hate having to say “No” so damn much.

My nephew is FINALLY coming home from California today. His flight landed at 9:15am, so my sister should be able to pick him up soon. That entire situation has been a nightmare. Her ex tried to tell her that Isaiah couldn’t fly without a social security number and threatened my sister over it. We all know that’s a lie. She withheld giving it to him because he’s shady. Who knows what he really wants it for. If he wants it that badly, he can file for one. We knew he was lying though. Isaiah doesn’t need his social security number to fly. He threatened to keep Isaiah and not send him back  over it. It’s just ridiculous. On top of that, he didn’t have my nephew do his summer homework, so when he gets home, that’s what he’s got to spend his time doing! He failed him educationally, and now my sister has to be the bad guy. It’s ridiculous and this guy still puts my sister through pure hell. He’s remarried, moved across country, and started a new life. Go be happy. I don’t get why he constantly has to mess with her. He refused to give her flight information until an hour before they boarded. Why?! It was my nephew’s very first plane ride. He was scared and was asking me all kinds of questions before he left. They took a bus to California, but flew back, so my nephew has never flown until last night. My sister was a nervous wreck and wanted the flight itinerary just to make sure everything went smoothly for him. Her ex had to be a real jack wagon and not give it to her. I don’t know what he gained from that. He’s just an immature baby. I absolutely HATE him and I’ll be helping my sister file to put tighter guidelines in place before my nephew goes back there. This guy makes his own rules and doesn’t abide by the court order. He thinks he’s “the man” when he clearly is not. Things are going to change because no one should have to worry about their kid THAT much when they are just going with their other parent. I just can’t wait until she picks him up. Then, we can all stop worrying. He is just a hostile individual. I have no idea why either. He’s the one who decided to end things with my sister 3 years ago.  He found someone else, then got married. Why are you so mad at my sister? It is stupid. I will take being a single parent ANY day over having to deal with that bologna.

He hasn’t paid any child support in two months either, but he’s so hell bent on my nephew playing football this season. Football isn’t cheap at all. I don’t understand why he thinks he can dictate to my sister when he isn’t around to see the games anyway and he isn’t paying anything for it. I cannot stand him. He thinks he’s entitled to boss my sister around and make decisions for my nephew. Just because you have your child 5 weeks out of the year and you don’t pay your child support, doesn’t mean you can tell her how to spend her money. My parents and I are purchasing all of my nephew’s school uniforms, shoes, backpack, socks, and underwear. He thinks he can dictate how things are going to go. I don’t think so. Go take a seat, son.

Mummy's super weekend

We had a fabulous weekend. Friday was pretty tame. I worked downtown, then picked Em up, headed to a graduation party, then stopped at my parent’s house on the way home. Em was pretty grouchy by that point. He had as diaper rash that I wasn’t aware of. After he pooped, it was all downhill from there. It’s cleared up since I lathered him up with Desitin all weekend. He slept until after 8am Saturday morning. I got up early and prepared for the day. We had plans to go to the animal farm, then swimming at my parent’s house. After Em woke up, we just hung around the house and played until naptime. I got ready, packed the diaper bag, then we headed out after Em woke and had his lunch. We had a blast at the farm. Em petted a goat. We saw horses, pigs, and chickens too. It was extremely hot and humid out. We were both soaked with sweat by the time we made our way around to all of the animals.  We headed to my parent’s house afterwards to swim. Em had a great time in the pool. The water was the perfect temperature too. We got right in. I love that part of summer when the water finally warms up enough to just hop in. After my parent’s, we headed home to play for a bit. Em had a bath, then went to bed.

Sunday was nice. Emerson slept until almost 9am! Is that not crazy?! He must have been really tuckered out from Saturday. Sunday was a little more chill. I got up at 645am, took a shower, got ready for the day, then cleaned up the dishes and the house. I also worked on my BeachBody business, and just relaxed before Em woke up.  We jumped in the car and headed to Dunkin Donuts. We do this usually every other weekend. He had a donut and I had a coffee. It was delicious. It’s nice to have a weekly treat. When we were all done with that, we headed into the yard. I filled up Em’s pool, water table, and set up his splash pad. We had a good time. He played for about 1.5 hours and did not try to get into ANYTHING that was off limits. It was amazing not having to say “No!” I just sat back and relaxed in the sun. It was REALLY nice! We ventured indoors because it was extremely hot. Em had enough sun and we still had plans to go swimming later in the day. After playing a bit inside and lunch, Em was ready for a nap. He slept from 1-2:30pm. I ate a snack, worked on my BeachBody business, and relaxed on the couch. It was nice. When Em woke up, we headed to my parent’s to swim. We ate dinner over there too, which was nice. Later, we headed back home to play a bit more, then Em had a bath, then went to bed. I did my Sunday night workout, made our meal plan and grocery list for the week, worked a little more on BeachBody, then hit the hay around 10pm! It was a full weekend.

This week, we don’t have much planned. There is a parent appreciation day on Friday at daycare that I plan on attending. It’s an hour in the morning from 10 to 11am, so I’m going to work from home that day, so I can go. Other than that, we don’t have much. We’ll probably just play in the yard, take a few walks, and just keep it low- key. This upcoming weekend, we’ll probably just swim at my parent’s house again. I was invited to a Bachelorette dinner on Saturday. It starts at 6:30pm, which isn’t bad at all. I asked my mom if she’d mind babysitting. I don’t plan on being gone very long. I like that it’s so early in the evening. I’d probably need a sitter from 6 to 9 at the latest, which isn’t too bad. My mom doesn’t mind at all. My best friend was invited too, but has not told me if she plans on going. It would be nice to go together, otherwise I will probably skip out. I only know the bride, so it seems silly to go with a bunch of other people that I’m not friends with. I’d rather save the babysitting services for a time that I can hang out with a crew that I really know. I will make an exception though if my bestie is attending. It would be nice to hang out without the kiddos for once!

The lawn company has still not responded to my messages, or voicemail. It’s really annoying. They are due to come back next Monday. I’m thinking of working from home that day, so I can be there to pay them in person. It’s starting to tick me off though. I know I’d want paid for services given! I’ll stop complaining about it now. It’s just really annoying. LOL

Alright, that’s about all I have for today. Have a super week, All!

Mummy's zoo trip

Yesterday was awesome. I took the day off of work because we had big plans to visit the zoo! It was Emerson’s first time there. I let Emerson sleep in. We didn’t have to leave the house until 930am, so I figured I’d just let him sleep until he woke up himself. I ended up having to wake him around 8:45am. I didn’t want to let him go too long. He still needed to eat breakfast and get dressed. I woke up at 5am even though I didn’t have to. I had someone from my accountability and support group send me a message that morning. We both wanted to get workouts done early, so it was a good way to hold each other to that. I pulled myself out of bed and completed my workout. Afterwards, I got completely ready and packed our bags for the day. I figured it would be easier for me to just get everything ready before Em woke up.

We headed to my parent’s house. My mom picked my sister up and met us back there, so I could drive all of us to the zoo. The parking lot was packed, but it wasn’t too bad inside. We saw everything. The animals were out and putting on a great show. There was a tiger laying directly against the glass! It was so neat! Em loved it. He ran himself ragged through the zoo. I put him in the stroller when we were in the aquarium and distracted him with a snack. It was exhausting chasing him around, but fun. I got a bit of a break when he was in the stroller.  He loved being able to walk around though. They had some live animals out too, so he got to touch a snack, a hedgehog, a goat, and a couple of guinea pigs too. After the zoo, we headed to Eat n Park for lunch. Em was passed out. I laid him down on the booth seat and ordered his food to go. He was wiped. It was pretty funny watching him nap in a restaurant. It just further validated that he had a great time.

Afterwards, we hung at my parent’s house for a bit, took my sister to work, then headed home. Em played in the yard for a while, we had dinner, then he got a bath and went to bed. I did a second workout because my eating fell off a bit yesterday. I didn’t do too horribly. I’m now 47 days into the program, so slipping up here and there isn’t really a big deal. I have portion control now and I know how to eat, so that’s most important.  It’s all about moderation anyway.

We have no plans this weekend. Tonight, I think we’re going to stop past a graduation party that I was invited to. It’s near my parent’s house, so we can stop over and say hi to them afterwards. I think we’ll be laying low this weekend to conserve some pennies. Yesterday was an expensive day. I’m making profit from BeachBody coaching, but I still need to be mindful of money. I’m appreciative at the extra things we’ve been able to do lately.

Alright, all. I hope you have a phenomenal weekend!

Mummy's unplanned evening

Well, yesterday did not go as planned. When I picked Emerson up from daycare, the teacher told me he had some discharge from his ear that ran out. Hmm. Okay? So, I didn’t want to take my chances. We hopped in the car and headed to the doctor instead of the salon to get Em a haircut. $20 was spent some way. Just not the way I had planned. Anyway, we had to wait for a while when we got up there, but the doc took a look and saw absolutely nothing wrong with his ears. Gah. It isn’t a quick drive either. It takes about 35 minutes to get up there and then another 35 minutes back. Traffic was a bit of a nightmare too. We were both starving by the time we got home too. I brought some snacks, but Em dumped them all over the waiting room floor. Nice, huh? I can only imagine the nasty germs floating around that place, so I wouldn’t even entertain the 5 second rule.

When we got home, I fed Em a quick dinner, we played a bit, then Em took a bath and went to bed. I had to prep my food, so I handled that task, then just had a protein shake for dinner. I dressed it up though with some peanut butter and banana. It was pretty delicious. I call it my chunky monkey Shakeology. Anyway, I just relaxed on the couch after that. I worked out with my mom earlier in the day. Yes, you read that correctly. I worked out WITH my mom, so I didn’t have to do that last night. She just started her 21 day fix program yesterday. She is rocking it and I cannot wait to see her results. I know this will just give her a new meaning and energy to her life. It excites me to see where this will lead her. She is so young. She’s only 51! It’ll be nice to get her up and out of the house too. All she does is work and play on her laptop. It makes me sad. She is taking the program seriously though. I think once she gets through the first week and sees good results, she will definitely stick to it. I can’t wait to see her confidence grow as her belly shrinks! In addition to my mom, my sister is now doing the program, which I think is awesome! I couldn’t be more happy for both of them. The three of us are going to be unstoppable! Look out!

I just did a 3 mile run with a co-worker during our lunch break. I didn’t know if I’d be able to make it through the end, but I did! It was amazing! Today was my cardio day, so I decided to skip my dvd and do a run. It’s nice to change things up a bit, but it’s back to the grind tomorrow! I also just purchased two copies of the 21 day fix recipe book that was just released to coaches today! One copy will be for myself and the other copy is a free giveaway to the people that I’m coaching. I’m doing a friend referral contest that ends next week. The winner gets the book FREE before it’s released to the public on August 6th! It feels good to be able to do something nice for the people that I’m coaching. Everyone wants to get their hands on a copy of that book. All of the coaches have eagerly been waiting for it to come out. I know I can’t wait to get mine in the mail.

We had the grass cut last night. Of course, the lawn company did not take the payment. This pisses me off. I wrote them a check almost a month ago that they have yet to cash. When they were there two weeks ago, they made note that I still owed them that payment. I let them know that I had already sent a check. It still has not been cashed, which means they either didn’t get it, or misplaced it. I made sure that I paid double this time and in cash. I figured if they found the check, then I’d be covered for the next cut. I sent them a message letting them know where the payment was. No response, but I wasn’t worried about it. We got home from the doctors last night and the yard was cut. Of course, they didn’t take payment! I am not writing another check. I sent them a message stating that they did not take the money. No response. I mean, wtf? I know I can call and they’ll debit my checking account, but I am really not comfortable doing that. I guess I’m going to have to call and talk to the guy about this. I really hate that he didn’t get paid yet for the last cut and now this one. I actually just called and no one answered. I left a message.  I don’t like owing people money. I want them to just come get it, so I don’t have to worry about it.

Alright, that’s about all I have right now. I hope you all have a great Tuesday J

Mummy's great weekend!

We had an absolute BLAST this weekend! On Friday night,  I stopped at the grocery store before grabbing Em from daycare. I bought pizza for us to make at home for dinner. Yes, I can have pizza in moderation! Anyway, we ate dinner and just played until Em went to bed. I worked out with a co-worker during the day, so I was able to sit and relax after he went to sleep. It was really nice.  I feel like all I do is rush around, so it’s always appreciated when I can just sit and not have anything to do. I ended up catching up on one of my shows: Total Divas. I am hooked on it and I don’t even watch wrestling.

On Saturday morning, I got up earlier than Em. I cleaned up, made some coffee in my Keurig (I finally brought it home from my parent’s house), then caught up on some BeachBody work. Em slept in until nearly 8am, which was nice. We had big plans to go to the Children’s museum, so when he woke up, I loaded him up with a big ol breakfast, then we played until it was time to get ready to head out. Em napped in the car on the way to the museum, which took about 30 minutes to drive to. Then, he napped an additional 20 minutes, while we waited for my sister, her fiancé, and his kids to get there. He was all rested up for a big day of play! The museum was AMAZING! It was nice because Em could just run and do whatever he wanted. He loved the freedom. Everyone helped out with the stroller and made sure it was always in sight too. That made it a lot easier on me. The place was adorable. I haven’t been there since I was a kid, so a lot had changed. It was fun to watch his face light up with every room that we entered. There was an entire water play floor that we skipped. I didn’t realize it was so involved and required the kids to get absolutely soaked. We’re going to go back just so Em can play on that floor. I’ll be prepared for that next time.

Sunday, we woke up early and headed out to run errands. Afterwards, we stopped at my best friend’s house for a quick playdate. After we got home, we ate, then Em napped 12-230pm. When he woke up, we went swimming at my parent’s house, then stopped by my other best friend’s house for a second playdate. It was a busy day! Em was tuckered out and in bed by 8pm. I did my workout, then parked it on the couch for the rest of the night until I pulled myself into bed around 10pm. Not bad!

Tonight, I’m taking Em for a much needed haircut. His curls are coming back in and his hair is getting unruly again. Hopefully he sits just as still tonight as he did for his first cut a couple months ago. His hair grows fast! On Thursday, we’re going to the zoo! I can’t wait. My sister and mom are coming with us. It’s not supposed to rain either. The forecast looks pretty bleak outside of Thursday and Friday. I chose Thursday because Emerson’s daycare is having an ice cream social on Friday. I don’t want him to miss out. This is his first trip to the zoo though. We didn’t go last year because he was still too young. I think he’ll love it now. I just worry about him running off. He can be a bit wild. At the museum, it was okay that he did that. All of the rooms were interactive. He can’t just run off at the zoo. 

Other than that, we don’t have any plans. We’ll probably try to swim at some point over the weekend, but we’re just laying low. This morning was already crazy enough for me. After I took Em to daycare, I had to run and do all of the grocery shopping. I picked up a booster seat, so that we can try to invoke some table manners into him. He hates the highchair now, but likes being at the table. That usually involves him standing. I’m really going to work on him SITTING at the table. Much safer! Let’s hope it works! Anyway, after I did the shopping, I had to come home to put it all away. Now, I am working from home, so I can get the laundry done. Not too bad. It has already been an extra busy day at work. I’m taking my “lunch” and then going to work out with my mom before logging back onto work for a few afternoon meetings. Today will be her first 21 day fix workout. I’m so excited for her!  I hope she keeps an open mind and really tries to get through it. She isn’t always the most motivated person, so I hope I can push her to keep with it. Wish me luck!

Alright, guys. I hope you all have a fabulous week!

Mummy's restless night

So, on Wednesday night, Emerson went to bed at his usual time. He seemed pretty tired. I put him to bed and went about my normal, nightly routine. About an hour later, I heard him crying. This is not typical at all. He just doesn’t do that anymore. When it’s bedtime, that’s it for the night. I didn’t immediately run up to his room. I figured he probably woke himself and he’d go back to sleep. He stopped crying, but then started up shortly after. This time, he wasn’t stopping, so I went into his room and saw that his diaper came off. Okay, that explains the freak out. I changed his diaper and made sure it was on securely, then I re-settled him in his crib, and walked out. He seemed fine. About 20 minutes later, he started freaking again. At this point, I was obviously concerned that we were going to have a bad night. I waited him out. He stopped crying after a min or two, then it was silence for 20 minutes, but then more crying. It wasn’t even freak out crying. It was more crying/whining like he couldn’t fall asleep. Oh boy. Around 10:30pm (three hours AFTER he originally went to bed) I tried putting him in my bed. He just could not settle himself. He kept yawning, and rubbing his eyes.  I felt so bad. I tried to rock him, then laid him back down in his crib. He’d be quiet for a few minutes, but then it would be more of the same crying/whining because he just couldn’t fall asleep.  We battled for about 5 more hours. It was crazy. I felt so bad, but nothing I did could relax him enough to fall asleep. Finally, around 3am, I was a zombie. I tried bringing him back into my bed. We haven’t co-slept in MONTHS. I was afraid of starting a bad habit, but more afraid of neither of us functioning due to lack of sleep. He fell asleep FINALLY. He woke up around 7am. I decided to just work from home, so that I could let him sleep and take him into daycare later. I got about 2.5 hours of sleep. Insane. Last night, it was fine. He slept all night with no issues. I’m so glad because I was beyond exhausted!

I functioned pretty well yesterday for lack of sleep. I mixed coffee with my Shakeology and made it into an iced mocha. It was pretty good and gave me the kick I needed to get through the day. After work, I took my mom’s 21 day fix program over to her house and went through everything with her. She’s super excited to start on Monday. Afterwards, I had to run to the store to grab milk and a few odds and ends, then I picked Em up from daycare. To my surprise, he didn’t have a bad day even though he was tired. They did let him nap longer, which I appreciated.

This weekend, we have no plans so far. I haven’t even thought about what we could do. I can’t believe it’s July already. When I was at the store yesterday, I was so confused that there was all of these back to school supplies out. Then I realized, well, it is almost that time. Summer has gone by way too fast and I feel like we’ve done nothing. No zoo trips yet and very little swimming/outdoor play. The rain is crushing it. Plus, he is so out of control these days. Taking him somewhere myself is such a task. I hate admitting that. It makes me feel weak, but honestly, it’s really hard sometimes, so I just opt out. He’s just at that stage where he wants to run and be independent, which means he doesn’t want to listen to me. It’s tough taking him somewhere and having an expectation that he won’t get into things he shouldn’t be when I know he’s just exploring. It’s just easier at home.

I am tossing around the children’s museum though. I’m thinking we can go early in hopes that there isn’t a big crowd. I heard they have a great toddler area and Em can just run freely with all of the interactive exhibits. That would be fun. He also gets in free, so I’d just have to pay for myself. On Sunday, we’d just visit my parents and keep it low-key. I think I just talked myself into these plans. LOL

Let’s talk about Beach Body quickly. I’ve been actively coaching for about three weeks and I’ve made enough commission to pay my car insurance, my cell phone bill, and my gas bill. Isn’t that insane? On top of that, I’m helping a ton of people. Everyone using their program has lost a lot of inches and lbs already, which is awesome! The group that run is amazing. It’s so motivational and it really pushes me and all of my members to keep going. We all inspire and encourage each other daily to keep on point with our nutrition and to do our workouts. If anyone has a bad day, or feels weak, they can come to the group for a pick me up. I love it and I couldn’t have asked to be part of a better team!

Alright, guys. I hope you all have a great weekend!

Mummy forgot to post this yesterday

Well, it looks like more rain here. Bleh. We don’t have any plans this week anyway, so I guess it doesn’t matter, but it would be nice to have a few days of sunshine in a row.

Rainiest. Summer. Ever.

I pre-made some burgers, meatballs, and ground turkey the other night, so dinner was a breeze yesterday. We had turkey burgers, sweet potato fries, and some mixed veggies. Easy peasy. Tonight, I think we’re going to do the meatballs. I made some homemade beefaroni with ground turkey the other night too, so I think we’ll just do that as a small side, with veggies. Nothing fancy. Of course, I’ll be measuring with my 21 day fix program containers. Don’t worry. It’s nice that I can still eat what Emerson is having and still have a bit of comfort food without going overboard. No complaints there. Last night, I was craving something sweet. I made a chocolate, peanut butter, banana shakeology. It was freaking delicious. It tasted just like a milk shake! It filled me right up, which meant I wasn’t tempted to sneak into the kitchen to try to snack on anything else. Tonight, I’m going to make a blueberry muffin shake for snack. I made one yesterday morning and it tasted amazing! I’m just now starting to experiment with different recipes and I’m LOVING it! Speaking of blueberries, I just remembered that today is our snack day and I didn’t send the snack in! Crap! I called daycare and the director assured me that it was fine and the teacher has a stash of snacks, so the kiddos won’t go hungry. I still feel bad though. We’re going to send our blueberries and graham crackers in tomorrow!

I couldn’t find my jeans this morning either. On Wednesdays, we can wear jeans at work. I have ONE pair of skinny jeans that fit me nicely. I just did laundry on Monday and they are no-where to be found. Sigh. I rooted through my drawers this morning and found a different pair of jeans that are a little big in the waist, but will do. I slapped those on. If I can’t find my other jeans, we’ll just run up to the mall this weekend. I can get a pair for $10 at Forever 21. Then, Emerson can play in the play place too. It’s a 2fer, though going to the mall these days is dangerous. I love getting Emerson cute, funny shirts. Those stores really lure me in and I want to be mindful of our finances right now. I am doing fairly well with Beach Body and I already know what my next two commission checks will be, but I don’t want to spend before I get it. I’d REALLY love to purchase a washing machine. That’s the goal here on my dream board outside of continuing to help people, growing my business, and continuing my fitness goals. I did just purchase more shakes, so that was a little bit of an investment for me, but I’ve already made my money back with my next two commission checks. Now, anything after that can go towards our washing machine. This way, I won’t need to go to my parent’s house once a week to do laundry! Maybe I’ll stop misplacing my jeans, eh?!

So, how are we doing? Well, Emerson didn’t try to pull the television down yesterday. That’s a plus! He did smash a toy train into my face last night. I thought he knocked out my front tooth. It scared the hell out of me. These kids are not gentle at all! Note to self, do not let Emerson dangle a toy above my face anymore. Lately, when I’ve been picking him up from daycare, he is so excited to walk out to the door himself. It CRACKS me up! Yesterday was no exception. He ran full force to the door without his shoes on. We were all laughing so hard. He just loves having the freedom to be able to do that now. In the mornings, He gives Kodie a kiss, then he stands at the door and waits for me to open it. Seriously, it is so funny! I know it seems super small, but watching him learn how to do things and gain his independence is pretty cool even when he does things that annoy me! In the mornings, he helps me stock his cubby with diapers, wipes, and extra clothes. Then, he shuts the door and heads into his classroom. It’s HEE-LARIOUS! I’ve been trying to ask him to HELP me with tasks because I think it gives him a sense of importance and I’m trying to let him make decisions, so that maybe he won’t be so defiant later because he gets to make enough choices throughout the day. Maybe that’ll help him scale back on doing all the dangerous stuff he tries to pull over on me daily! Being really optimistic here!

My nephew seems to be having a good time in California. I talked to him on the 4th of July. He did sound homesick, but like he was still enjoying his time there. He comes back in about 3 weeks! Not too much longer! I haven’t talked to my sister very much at all since our little tiff. We are over it, but it does feel like something shifted between us since that happened. It sucks. I’m sure she feels it too, but I honestly am doing 100 other things a day that I don’t really have time to think about it. I wish they were the same as they were before. It makes me sad. We aren’t arguing, or anything like that, but something is definitely different.

Today, I’m doing a fitness training with my cousin at noon during our lunch break. Pray for me! It’s going to be insanely hard. She’s training for a Spartan Race, which is something like tough mudder, but more intense. She invited me to come train with the team for the day. I am crazy nervous! I hope I can make it through! They run with buckets of rocks and sand bags. I’m not sure my 21 day fix workouts have quite prepared me for activities like that! We’ll see how it goes.

Alright, I have tons to do today and I need to get started. I hope you all have a fabulous Wednesday!

Mummy's holiday

What a weekend! I was off on Friday, so Emerson and I headed over to my parent’s house to swim. My best friend and her son joined us. Em was okay in the pool. Definitely not as good as last year. He is just so wild. He wants in, then out, up, then down, in the raft, then out of the raft. It was a bit chaotic. I don’t play around water, so I was not very happy when he was being a bit too wild. We did have a good time though. I’m glad the weather held up enough for us to swim. Afterwards, we went home. Em ended up going to bed at his usual time. Nothing too fancy to report there.

Saturday, as you know, was the 4th of July. Em and I didn’t plan on going to my parent’s house until later in the day. We ended up wake up and heading out in our jammies to run some errands. I needed to get some stuff to make a flag fruit plate for our cookout that afternoon. When we were done, we stopped and had breakfast with my mom. It was nice. Then, we headed home for Em to take a nap. I got everything ready for the cookout and packed the car. We took the pack n play with us, so that Em could nap if he was tired at my parent’s house. I was also able to work out and get ready too! Bonus! We headed over to my parent’s house around 3pm. We swam for a bit and played, then Em took a nap. He slept until about 630pm. I thought that meant he’d be able to hang for the fireworks, but I was wrong. My dad did set some of his own off though, so Em got to see those. We went home around 9pm, then Em went to bed. He was pretty tuckered out. I hope next year we can stay up for the fireworks. He is just so busy and into everything. He tuckers himself out. I hope this phase ends fast, but something tells me it won’t. He completely ignores me when I say “No” It’s driving me insane! It wouldn’t matter so much if he weren’t doing things that could hurt him. He climbs onto chairs, tables, ANYTHING. He was messing with the pool filter plug too. He was trying to climb the pool ladder too even after we ALL said “No” about 3000 times. I am so sick of saying “No”. I feel like that’s ALL I do anymore. I am trying to choose battles though and not worry so much about the small things like him throwing food onto the floor. I more so care about things that’ll hurt him like scaling the television stand. It’s just one endless cycle of the word “No!”

Sunday, we stayed home for most of the day, then headed to my parent’s to swim for a bit. My sister, her fiancé, and his kiddos were there, so that made it more fun. We didn’t stay very long. Em was really tired by the time we left, but I kept him awake until his usual bedtime. He slept all nice, which was much appreciated, but I was up at 330am! Gah! I thought I heard a noise, so in typical horror movie fashion, I walk around the house trying to find what I heard. I ended up lying in bed and watching Golden Girls until 5am, then I got up, worked out, got ready, then got Em up and out to daycare. Afterwards, I went grocery shopping, then came back home to put everything away. I took my best friend a new coach present that I put together to welcome her to the team. She just signed up under me to be a beach body coach!  I got her a really adorable workout tank that says “It’s time to sweat” , a fruit/water infusion bottle, an inspirational sign about having big dreams, an ADORABLE calendar/notebook for her to start tracking her business goals/needs, a to do list notepad, and a congratulatory card. It was really cute and just something that I plan on carrying out anytime I sign a new coach. I know she appreciated it and it’ll help keep her motivated, especially in these beginning days as a new coach. I know I appreciated it so much when my coach sent me a package. It gave me a little more drive to work hard and really meet my goals!

This week, we don’t have much going on at all. Em has a teddy bear picnic on Friday, so I’ll be sending in a honey comb trail mix and a teddy bear for him. Super adorable! I can’t wait to put the trail mix together. I got a really cute container to house it in and I’m going to make a tag/label that says “Don’t feed the bears”. It’s been quite some time since I’ve put anything cute together for daycare, so we are long overdue. I’m thinking we’ll just lay low this week and lag some pool time this weekend if weather permits.

Alright, I hope you all have a wonderful week!

Mummy's holiday plans

I’m exhausted. Work has killed me today. Sprit=dead. I’m taking a break because I’ve been going HARD for the last five hours. My poor eyeballs need a rest from auditing. I believe I’m sneaking in a quick 10 minute extreme AB workout this afternoon with my cousin in our work gym studio. She ordered the 21 day fix program, but hasn’t gotten in yet, so it’s nice to show her what she’s getting and to do it together. Last night, after I was done working out, I felt a HORRIBLE pain in my collar bone and shoulder. I’m okay now, but it felt like a pulled muscle for a few minutes. Because of that, I’m going to nurse my upper body a little just to play it safe. The last thing I want is to be out of commission.

Speaking of commission, I received my very first Beach Body paycheck today. They work a week in arrears, so what I’m being paid today is from what I made two weeks ago, which was from my first week of coaching. I already know what my check will be next week from what I made this week, which is nice. I’m not going to complain about some extra pocket money. I just wish other people would see what an amazing opportunity this is and take it!

When Em and I got home yesterday, the new play tent and tunnel I ordered was at the door! I did not expect it to be so big! I ended up putting it in the backyard. I cannot believe how big everything is. There is no way we can keep that in the house. I set it up in the living room and there wasn’t even enough room for him to play with it. Hilarious! I knew what I was being paid this week from Beach Body, so I ordered Emerson a few things. It was nice to do that without worry!

Tomorrow, I believe the weather is going to be nice. We’re going to head to my parent’s to swim, then pick up some stuff from the grocery store for the 4th of July. I’m making a flag out of blueberries, strawberries, and cheese slices. Super cute! I love cheese and fruit! It’ll be nice to have something decent for me to snack on throughout the day too. Trying to stay on point with my nutrition even though it’s a holiday weekend.

Outside of that, we don’t have much going on. I’m hoping to log some serious pool time this weekend though. I plan on bringing the pack n play over to my parent’s house, so I can put Emerson down for naps. He won’t just drop and sleep when he’s tired. He NEEDS to be put down, which isn’t really a bad thing, but sucks when you have nowhere to actually put him down. We end up leaving when he gets cranky and in need of a nap. I don’t want to have to do that this weekend. Dad bought TONS of fireworks too, so I want us to be able to hang at their house ALL day. I know he won’t make it the entire day without a nap, so I’m hoping he goes to sleep for a bit in the pack n play.

Alrighty, that’s about all I have for today. I hope everyone enjoys their 4th of july weekend!!!!

Mummy's busy!!

When I picked Emerson up from daycare on Monday, they told me he was battling a stomach ache. He was actually laying on the floor in the fetal position crying. When we got home, he was definitely not a happy camper. I was able to get him to take a two hour nap though. He looked absolutely worn out. Probably from all the wailing and crying. When he woke up, he didn’t seem any better, so we headed to Rite Aid around 730pm. I grabbed prune juice, a new thermometer (ours broke), and some gas drops. He skipped dinner completely, but did eat some apple sauce and sipped some prune juice. Still, no movement. He was exhausted, so I put him to bed around 9:30pm. Poor guy. He woke up around 6am with a wet diaper, but still no poop!

I packed all of his stuff for the day and took him to my parent’s house yesterday. My mom was off and watched him for me. We didn’t want to risk him getting sent home from daycare, which would blow today completely. I really appreciated it too. I was in office, so I wasn’t there to help her out. She said she had an amazing day though! They had a good time and he pooped massively! Glad it was for her and not me! When I picked Em up, he was exhausted. He napped one time for her in the early morning. When we got home, he napped in his crib for almost 2 hours. I woke him up around 6pm though. I wasn’t risking ruining bedtime. He ate dinner, played, then took a bath, and went right to bed. I did a second workout, prepped for lunch today, then sat on my bum!

Today was really busy at work! I had a two hour presentation and then had to hurry to catch up all of my work. With the holiday, our office is closed on Friday, so I have to jam pack so much into the next two days. We aren’t doing much for the 4th. We’re going to my parent’s house to swim, cookout, and watch the fireworks. Pray for no rain, okay? I hear there is a 50% chance. I hope it passes over us. We need some nice weather. It’s July and it has rained more than it hasn’t. it makes me sad. The entire summer is going to be over before we know it and we’ve barely done anything. We swam ONE TIME!

I held a second class at the gym yesterday! It was so much fun! We did an upper workout. I’m feeling it today. I definitely pushed myself harder than I do in my basement when I’m working out alone. We’re doing lower body next Tuesday and then going to try to squeeze in something on Friday. I’m hoping as we go along, more people will take an interest too! I’ve had two different groups of people for the classes that I’ve run so far. Nothing huge, but I think as I invite more and give a little more notice, the crew will grow too.

Emerson’s daycare is having a teddy bear picnic on July 10th. I’m going to make a cute snack and send him in with his teddy bear. Super cute. There is also a parent appreciation on July 24th that I’m going to. The kids are having an ice cream social on the 17th, so I’m sure he’ll enjoy that. So many things to put on the calendar!

Alright, I am going to finish up a few things, then head out. Have a great night!!!!