Monday, April 25, 2016

Adulting sucks

I don’t even know where to begin, so I’ll just start with this weekend. On Saturday, the early intervention girl came over to give me information and have me sign all of the initial paperwork before we set up Emerson’s evaluation. The evaluation will take place within the next two weeks.   We decided to go with occupational therapy for sensory issues, speech therapy, and just general therapy  for social and cognitive issues from an intervention specialist. His fine and gross motor skills are fine, so we left out the physical therapy. He might not qualify at all. I mean, his speech is picking up A LOT. He still has a very difficult time sitting still though and with climbing regardless of being told “No”, so I believe they feel they can work on that type of behavior.  It isn’t like Emerson will realize anything is going on either. It’s more of them just playing with toys and gathering information they need. The evaluation is 3 hours though, which sucks. We scheduled it for 9am, so I can work from home when I am done.  I will follow-up to let you guys know how it is afterwards and what results we get.

On Saturday night, Dave came over to have dinner with us, then we had a fire in the yard. It was nice. I didn’t write about this earlier, but we made it “official” last week. I am still not entirely comfortable with this. I’ve been on my own for such a long time that being “with” someone else is strangely uncomfortable. I am trying to not get inside of my own head because that makes me want to dart the other way.  I am trying to just let these feelings settle though. I don’t want to self-sabotage for no reason. There are things that I have noticed that I don’t necessarily like though, but I intend on talking about it before I make a hasty decision. We will see. It’s nice having someone to spend time with and talk to. Emerson is really fond of him, but Emerson is usually REALLY fond of anyone. I haven’t brought a person around that he doesn’t like. I think what I like is that it appears that Dave is fond of Emerson and doesn’t mind being around him and interacting together. It’s extremely nice that we can spend time together without my having to get a babysitter too. I don’t want to be with someone out of convenience though. I just need to sort through how I feel and see where to go from here.

This weekend, my nephew turns 12! I cannot believe he will be 12! Time has flown by so quickly. We’re throwing an insanely amazing Glow-in-the-Dark party for him. The décor is ridiculous. My sister was playing with some of the lights last night. Her house looked like a club! I know the kids are going to have a blast. She has white t-shirts for everyone to decorate before the party starts too. That’ll give them something to do, while we’re waiting for the sun to set and for it to get dark, so everything glows even more. I’m going to make some decorations for her this week. I cannot wait. I found the idea on Pinterest and thought it would be a good 12 year old party theme. Turns out, he loves the idea and all of his friends are super excited too.  We throw some great parties! The best part is we can re-use all of these expensive black lights for a pretty sick Halloween party this fall. At least we can try to get her money’s worth.  The birthday party is on Friday night. His actual birthday is on Saturday. My sister is having all of us over for dinner, so that’ll be nice. Emerson and I bought him a mini fridge for his birthday. It’s nothing huge, but big enough for some drinks and snacks. He has pretty much everything he could ever want, so buying him gifts is hard. I thought this would be a neat thing to have in his room considering he always has friends there. If I was 12 with a mini fridge in my room, I’d feel like a boss! I’ll post pictures afterwards, so you guys can see how cool it all looked!

That’s about all we have going on right now. I hope this week is super boring. I don’t need any excitement at all. The same old routine is good for me. I’m running today. I ran 3 times outside last week, once inside, and then I lifted another day. I upped my cardio in hopes that I can slim down a little quicker before my birthday. The diet is going okay. I wouldn’t even call it a diet. You guys know how I feel about that. Clean eating is going well. It could be better though. I threw caution to the wind on Saturday and Sunday this week. Sometimes, you just have to! I’ll try to clean it up this week though before all of the festivities this weekend. I plan on running 3 days this week and lifting 3 days this week. That sounds fair and like a better balance than last week. We will see! I don’t feel like I am making any progress though. I’m doing enough to just stay the same. That is crappy. I know what I NEED to do. I just want to wait to do it until the beginning of next month.

Alright. I am outta here.

Have a great week

-Ash

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